We’re all being played! It’s a game, that sometimes goes to far when emotions are involved! So how do you win? Trumping everyone and doing the most dispicable thing to say you got everyone before they got you? Or being the smart one who’s feelings don’t get touched because they are unreachable! Sometimes I don’t want to be in these games! I want to live and love! I want friendship to actually mean being a friend! Why have we gained enemies? How have we all gained enemies that walk within our presence…who go everywhere with us as if they were our greatest alli! Hypocrits! Those who get mad at someone for potentially doing you wrong, then they go out and do that person wrong and in turn they are doing you wrong 2 times over! We’ll all live! We’ll all live!!! Some of us may never love though! The love that naturally generates from our spirits can be shot down! I don’t want him to cry!!! Is it my fault??? It’s not, but am I responsible? No one should hurt the way they hurt! No one should feel pain the way they do! Are you reading this? Can you hear me? Hear my voice telling you to stay strong, telling you that when every door closes it makes room for another door to Open! But who am I to give words of encouragement? I don’t even know the situation but puzzle pieces quickly add together and I don’t like it! Where Am I going with this? Am I talking about myself or you? Am I going to speak on the behalf of love? Once someone holds even an ounce of my heart they have it for a life time! It wasn’t my name u were screaming while we were together! “Just call me daddy when you stroke cause I can’t live being called someone else’s name!” This didn’t really happen but I have an active imagination! Choke me like you choke him, just remember my name next time! Where did that come from? I titled this about friends! This post has nothing to do with friends! I really liked you for a minute. I was boyfriend number 2! Ooops I was wrong. I was just a number or your list! NEXT! I really loved you, but you were in love with someone else! Then when you decide to love me back it just got compicated! NEXT! I never really liked you so I’m not trippin! NEXT! I like you because I saw a spark, and I love sparks, but being young and nieve I didn’t realize that it was a friendship spark! NEXT! You just wanted to Fuck! NO! NEXT! You just wanted to suck!NO! NEXT! You just wanted to get sucked! HELL NO! NEXT! I went after you, but you fell a little too hard but tried to deny it! I care about you and enjoy you, and you mean so much to me, but NEXT!(I feel bad about that one)NEXT NEXT NEXT!!! Who else? Oh you! Short stuff! Sexual chemistry is amazing, but I’m looking for love boo boo! We’ve known each other for a while and that made it amazing, but where is the romance honey?!? NEXT! Traveled out of my way for you! I was young and had a car hoping this could be the start of something beautiful! I even had a gift! (Simp!)Good head on your shoulders. Going off to school at the time! “Call me rooster Cogburn!” Corny as shit, but my dumbass liked it! Sarcasm! I love mean sarcastic assholes! I liked this one, but at the same time didn’t really know this one, and I gave no reasons to be liked back, and we had just met like a few days before! I need to learn how to like the person for the person and not just like them for what I can see in the future by what little glimpse I got from them, but I always know when I’ll like someone! NEXT! What the hell did this turn into? A list of suiters! The ghost of past crushes! I’m simplistically complicated! Who’s next? You again? Damn I loved the hell out of you! TMI! Maybe I should delete some stuff! I’m not! Maybe I should proof read! I’m not! I do have a message to this one special person! You know it’s about you and to you so don’t even ask! Here it is! There are those in your life who genuinely love and care about you! They never planned on hurting you but sometimes shit just happens! Pray for them for there is something going on within that person that needs to be fixed. There are others who just enjoy hurting others. The mean, surly people in this world who just marinate in anger! Fortunatley I don’t see too many of those people around you, if any! It’s sad to see someone in the crossfire or someone else trying to finger out their life and their past! We all get caught up in! We become a pawn in their elaborate life! We often feel like we are that kind or queen that will be there for everything, but sometimes we are used as stepping stones in someone else’s life’s path! We get hurt and it breaks us down inside, but we neglect to look at the stepping stones of our lives! We’ve done it too! OOOoops. It does hurt though when it happens to us! But we live right? We pray! We think! We write! We move on eventually! Sometime after a lot of tears and heartache, but we move on! I know you hurt and I hurt for you, but all I can do is sincerely apologize! I need to apologize for what others have done to you! I need to apologize for anything I may have done towards you…and even apologize for the things that I haven’t done that maybe you felt I should have! One thing about me is that love will always generate from my spirit! I may be a bitch sometimes and have lapse of judgement but damn it! I love hard! And I wish anyone that has ever crossed my path the best! I love you, and will always love you till the end of time and beyond!
